Starting over…

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So what reasons do I have to run the marathon this year? I went through it over and over and over again in my head.  As happy as I was to finish last year, I just did not think I did my best.  I know that finishing a marathon is quite an accomplishment, and I absolutely admire anyone who has enough within themselves to go year after year training for one sometimes multiple marathons in a year.  I don’t know what kind of marathon runner I will be, but I did not want to be a one and done kind of runner.  The moment I crossed the finish line last year at an agonizing 6 hours and 49 minutes, I knew the race got the best of me.  Let’s admit it, I knew halfway through that it beat me to a submission and step after step, I cursed the idea of running 26.2 miles.  I kept thinking “I can’t wait to be done with the $%*# race!”

This was absolutely not the way I wanted to remember my first marathon.  I felt like I cheated myself from such a wonderful experience that everyone always talks about when they talk about finishing a marathon.  Experienced runners that I spoke to always told me that the first marathon is mainly about finishing, and that’s all I thought of when I was in so much pain that I had to walk through parts of Chinatown.  And the second I crossed the finish line, I immediately thought to myself, “Alright, FIRST one is now done.”  I flip-flopped for months about signing up for another one, but the fact is that I am competitive.  Sure, I may not ever be able to truly compete for any awards or age rankings, but sometimes your biggest motivation is your past.  And I want to beat my 2010 self, and I have a score to settle with the Chicago Marathon.

You got me good the first time around, and I know not to take you lightly.  I will truly be ready for you this year, friend.  Can’t wait to see you in October!

0 Replies to “Starting over…”

  1. I already got my Epic Swarm badge on foursquare, but we’ll gladly cheer you on this year! I’ll bring my running shoes again, just in case you need a little extra motivation

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